Kelly Rowland Rose Colored Glasses lyrics

A song that has me thinking alot about the past.

Everybody's saying that we should get back together
And everybody's saying that we're meant to be together
Everybody's saying that how the love was so damn perfect
And I ain't never seen a petal that don't think it's worth it
Cuz...

They ain't been through the things that you put me through and
They ain't seen all the things that I seen in you and
They ain't never cried the tears you made me cry
So they can't be the judge cuz...

They don't know what I know
They never seen that part of you
They know the lies I know the truth
They say stay I say go
They never aseen our scars before
They think our love is beautiful

Everything is beautiful when you're looking through
Rose coloured glasses
Everything seems amazing when you see the view through
Rose coloured glasses
..Take 'em off


Everybody's thinking I was just too scared to love you
You've got them all believing that I folded under pressure
It's crazy how I gave my best I tried so hard to love you
I can't believe that all this time my pain just brought you pleasure
But...

They ain't been through the things that you put me through and
They ain't seen all the things that I seen in you and
They ain't never cried the tears you made me cry
So they can't be the judge cuz...


They don't know what I know
They never seen that part of you
They know the lies I know the truth
They say stay I say go
They never aseen our scars before
They think our love is beautiful

Everything is beautiful when you're looking through
Rose coloured glasses (Oh no)
Everything seems amazing when you see the view through
Rose coloured glasses
..Take 'em off 

And then I know that I have my sexy man Chris, who is everything I could hope for and more and I am so happy that i can be open about our lives and feelings to everyone and not just part of them, 100% of it. 

Bingham,Chris from Austin,Dating.

As I listen to classical music on Sirius Satellite radio before bed I start to ponder the weekend of Bingham, which if you dont know is the gay rugby world cup tournament was last weekend.

The weekend started off with a party at the Saloon where I met up with Pete from Grinder. Let me 1st say Pete is a sweetheart. We had a good time talking at the bar before we headed back to his hotel room where we undressed and kissed, groped,touch and did some oral fun which was fine but I was not getting anything from it. I could not understand why but then I thought about it and it might have been the fact that I saw this hot man name Chris at the Saloon before we left. After I left Pete in his hotel room I went back to the bar to see if I could run into Chris again and I did.

Some back story on Chris is that he and I have been talking on Recon for some time before I left for Bingham Cup. He said he was going to be in town to see family and to see his old rugby team play in the cup as well. Which in most case's I would think that I would not run into him at all, but I did and I do not regret it at all. Now back to the good stuff.

Chris and I played around at the bar and chatted a bit and I knew this was different, this was what I've been looking for. A man who is him self and into kink and doest worry about what other people think of him or what he is doing. Chris pinched and twisted my nipples and slapped my face and punched my chest and abs and it was GREAT! I've been craving this type of play for along time.

One of the things that makes this so different is that he is my age and I mean my age he is 26. We both were done with high school in 2002 and we both are sexually active and into the BDSM/Leather Community. I've played with, fucked and been fucked by mens that I may have not been 100% physically into but have been mentally connected to because of leather or some type of kink. But Chris is a top and a SIR and into everything I am, as I am with his interest's. He is taller than me and stronger then me and just fucking hot. So as he walked me to my hotel he we talked about meeting up on Saturday to hang out at the pitch and get to know each other more.

Like a real true Sir, Chris showed up when he said he would and he spent the rest of the day talking and watching my rugby team the Seattle Quake with me under the bleachers( as most of you may know us gingers(me) burn whenever the sun appears, so I was down there for that reason and also for some private talking and touching.) Chris then drove me back to my hotel room and we did some pretty hot play in the shower then as we were getting dressed all of my roomies had walked and and of course gotten some ideas in their heads but oh well, after they all left Chris and I finish getting dressed we went out for a great dinner had a chance to talk and eat and look into each other eyes and just learn more about our selfs and each other. Then Chris walked me back to my room like a gentleman and had to leave as he had some prior plans with family.

Then I went to a dinner with my brothers of my rugby club, which True set up for us and it was a blast. Everyone had a great time and so did I. As I headed back to the hotel room I notice there was a skip in my step as I was super excited that I was going to get to see Chris in a few hours at the Eagle. We met up there and had a blast as we had been having the entire time since I met him. I know I said before I was not going to be looking to date anyone but when your not looking for something its when you always find what you are looking for.

So with that being said, I am excited to have talked with Chris(Sir) every day since then on the phone and in text message and I'm looking forward to talking about having him come visit me here in Seattle soon.

Life is great.

A break from the norm

Over the next few days I'll be taking a break from the normal days of my life as rugby's spring season has just ended. My plan is to be brainstorming on the past few weeks about what has been going on and what I want to happen.

Some ideas that may be in the blog could be about dating,fitness,doing a car trade in , was it love and-or just lust, rugby, work, job search, my DC friends and my friendships I am trying to bond here.

Love?Nope, Touch? YES

I know I told a few people my next blog would be about love and how much I want to start living with my heart on the outside and then I was thinking if I did that it may get hurt a little to much so instead I've just been listening to music today after a boring day at work doing a reset of glassware.

So I've been listening to Ke$ha, Yeah I know bad idea but she has a song called "your love is my drug." And well I've been feeling the same way about someone, just with it not being love and more of a touch. So I cut out of some verses and changed some of the wording and now you get what I have below.

What you've got friend is hard to find
Think about it all the time
I just cant get you off my mind

Because your touch, your touch, is my drug

Won't listen to any advice, I'm being told to think twice
But left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!

My friends think I've gone crazy, my judgment is getting kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crackhead


What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried

I just cant get you off my mind

Because your touch, your touch, is my drug

I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me

IRS, Dating, Rugby-ish, Portland, Friendship

So lets get the bad info out first, so I am being audit from the IRS from tax year 2008, which sucks cause I did not think I had any of the paper work for my schooling or work. but then I remember that I'm a nut for record keeping and that I actually had all the taxes from when I started to work in a small box in my closet.

While I was looking for the right paper work I was listening to Lady Antebellum's I Need You Now song remixed by dj Dark Intensity and it made me think about what my rugby brother True said about me at brunch on Sunday in Portland. He said that I did not need or want to just have random sex, that I was looking for love and this song has me thinking that he might be right. I do believe in GREAT love, the kinda sappy love like Moulin Rouge. I just dont think I am ready to give up my chance of having non knowing of names type of sex and fun before I settle down with someone. At the same time I dont believe in monogamy for the long run of relationships. I did though have a person of interest come to my rugby match down in Portland to watch.

His name is Marc, and I had a blast just hanging out with him and talking and just messing around until most of my rugby brothers were all leaving for steak and tit's and I started to feel guilty about not hanging with them and showing my str8 teammates that even though they are odd(cause they are str8) that I'm glad and thankful that they play with us. So I told Marc to head home and I was going to met up with my rugby brothers.
So I got to the strip bar and everyone had a blast, the girls were hot and very flexible with great ass heels on.

So the weekend trip with my rugby brothers turned out to be a blast and like always I had a great time just getting to know more of my rugby mates on and off the pitch. I do have to say that the only thing that would have made it a better weekend was if Aryk was there.

Not many of you know much about him. I would say he is one of the very few people out here I feel like I could call him a a true friend. So some info on him (dont worry Aryk). He is one of the guys that I just have been hanging with on the pitch (rugby field)and off helping me with my change in my old relationship and just giving me advice when I ask for it (mainly lately its been about muscle aches)and he has been my good voice on my shoulder. As my DC peeps all know, my evil ginger side tends to come out alot.

So with all of that being said, I would just like to say, thank you to the Seattle Quake Rugby Club for all the help on the pitch and the advice off the pitch about life and that this weekend was once again a blast.

Till next time all of you be in good health my dear friends far and near.

Quotes,Song,No more bull shit.

Here is a song that I am just really getting into today, I've listened to it about 10 times and it could become the song that gets me started on living my life for myself. No more heart aches no more drama, no more bull shit. There is also two quotes that I've been meaning to get back into living by. Its seems every time I get away from living by these I always end up with heart ache. So here are the two quotes and the song:

"I will wear whatever and blow whomever I want as long as I can breathe and kneel"

"I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best".



If We Ever

BY: David Guetta


I've been fragile for a long time
A big old hole inside my heart
And I was searching through the valley
Stumbled on love in the dark

Was afraid to try but afraid to never know
What it feels like to be loved
Had a hill to climb
but the places we could go
Oh, I gotta know

So if we ever, fell in love
Would the wind know, would the pain go, oh
So if we ever, fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

I was empty it was all gone
The birds would sing but made no sound
Till I met you, found I was all wrong
You picked me up right off the ground

Was afraid to try, and afraid i'd fall again
crashing down from the sky, you know
Had a hill to climb, but with you I my heart will mend
That's the one thing, we all wanna know

So if we ever, fell in love
Would the wind blow, would the pain go, oh
So if we ever fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

I just wanna know, I just wanna know
tell me tell me so, baby I just wanna know


So if we ever fell in love
would the wind know, would the pain go, oh
so if we ever fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

So if we ever fell in love
oh, I wanna know what it feels like to be loved

Boys

So things with me and my man are not going so well and to make stuff even more of a challenge I've been connecting with a friend that I met here in Settle. I've been trying to figure out if I want a boy friend, fuck buddy, friends or I just want to go back to when I was happy with hooking up whenever and wherever. So only time will tell. I hope that I can find the answers here soon.